The one with the snow!!

Hmm. Who’d have thought decaf latte would taste the same as a normal one? I am much pleased :-)

So. News. Hmmm. Other than the obvious (which is still causing me no major problems – had a headache yesterday and was knackered but other than that, nothing much! Woo!) I don’t have much news! We got paid today thank goodness, so we’re going to IKEA tonight to get some cheap wine glasses for the Christmas lunch on the 12th and also some martini glasses for my awesome Christmas cocktail which I must now drink virgin style *sob*. Has anyone else realized the irony of calling the type of drink that pregnant women must drink ‘virgin’ ? Or is that just me? Anyway the virgin version (wow that was a mouthful!) of this particular drink actually sucks pretty spectacularly, as without the alcohol it’s just peppermint flavoured lemonade lol! Perhaps I will have fizzy cranberry instead…

So today David, Spot and I reached 6 weeks pregnant and I know December is just going to fly by with so much going on. In fact by the time I return to work after the Christmas break I will be almost TWELVE WEEKS! Ohmigosh! So surreal. In a way, I am quite pleased that the supposedly most unpleasant trimester will be over with so quickly (not that it’s been particularly unpleasant in my experience… so far!) Then I can get on with the ‘safer’ second trimester and not feel quite so nervous about losing little Spot. You have no idea how happy I was when I took the test this morning and the test went so dark so quickly... go hcg levels, go!!!

Later on, after lunch.

Wow it is super snowy here! And by ‘super’ snowy, I do only mean crappy English snow. Still :-D very fun! Our coach back from town at lunch got stuck halfway up the driveway and we had to walk the rest of the way! Will the excitement never end?? Hehe. So after managing to trek into town to get a Secret Santa present for work and wrecking my hair in the process, I made it back to the office just in time to doss around for the rest of the afternoon. No not really, I am actually very busy and important at work, I can’t think what they’ll do without me!

So will Ella and David brave the snow and make it all the way to IKEA in Croydon tonight with every intention of leaving with only the stuff they intended to buy but actually purchasing very important things that they don’t really need, such as melon bowlers and garlic crushers? The saga continues...

Even later...

The answer is no LOL. The snow got far worse and this country being as crap as it is about snow, sent everyone home early! So we are snowbound indoors and my lovely husband has gone trekking out in it to get us some food and didn't want me coming with him in case I slipped over and hurt myself or Spot. Bless him :-)

The one where I double check!

Happily everything is fine, and the line is much stronger this time which helps relieve me of a secret worry that I caught the tail end of a miscarriage on Sunday (I have no idea where I got that idea!) anyway the hormones are obviously increasing, which means Spot is growing... look! :-)

The one where I am suddenly knackered!!

OMFG I am so tired. I have yawned approximately 1 million times today! Is it home time yet??

The one with all the exciting dates

Wow. So, until further notice we are going by my original dates (as I’m told that is what the doctor will do as well), so… the stats so far are as follows!

Date of last period – 19th October
Date next period due – 16th November
Date of first BFP – 28th November
Currents number of weeks – 5 weeks 6 days
‘Change of week’ day – Tuesday
DUE DATE – 26th July 2011!!

I fully expect some of these to change after the first scan (please, please let us get that far!!) as I got a BFN at 3 and 7 days late, which either suggests a late ovulation or low hcg levels (I really hope it’s not the second one, as I can find no evidence of this leading to anything good!) One thing that reassured me is that the line came up very clear and quickly yesterday, and Clearblue Digi puts my date of conception as 1-2 weeks ago (which of course, if I’d ovulated 14 days into a 28 day cycle I would have conceived about 3-4 weeks ago and I should’ve shown positive straight away when I was late!). But then of course Clearblue Digi would also say that if my hcg level was abnormally low, as it goes by the amount your body *should* have by that amount of weeks :-( Oh I don’t know!

Anyway, there’s no way of knowing any dates for sure until the scan (which should be sometime in January) so until then I’ll stick with my original dates although I expect them to be at least a week out, if not two. Darn it, now I see the benefits of knowing when you ovulated lol! Uh oh I’m turning into a control freak.

The one with the BFP!!

OMFG!!


Ok so it's super official now! Still very early though... Please hang in there Spot!!

I feel completely normal which is nice... I'm sure soon enough I'll start feeling less bouncy so I'm gonna make the most of it! Off for a celebratory lunch with Emma and Miles this afternoon (no drinking... Boo!) and I have to figure our how to explain no drinking at my office Christmas party haha! We don't plan on telling our parents for a few more weeks (we wanna give them both a 'Nan & grandad' Christmas card from Spot with a pic of the most recent test inside!) but I am making a docs appointment for Friday (as you remember I was going to anyway, to try and figure out why my period wasn't here lol!) so... Hopefully all will be confirmed properly (although after seeing it on two decent tests, I feel much better!)

OMG I just can't believe it!!!

The one where I am afraid of Christmas decorations!

Hmmm so you guessed it... still waiting, no period! Not sure about testing tomorrow as it's the 13th day of being late (I'm not normally superstitious but stupidly I'm not taking any chances over this (as if it'd make a difference!)

In other news - the Christmas tree is up (nooo return of the creepy Santa head decorations!!) and the flat is super clean and tidy so yay! On top of that, the spare bedroom is finally clutter free. Let's hope we can keep it that way! We've just gotta get my rocking chair from my nan's house and then I'll be ready to set up my nursery haha! I found the most beautiful dark wood sleight style cot which I want!!! Arg, so excited for being able to legitimately plan a nursery.

One last thing... Pay day in three days woop woop!!

The one where I try and fight my own appalling taste in music (and TV!)

Wow so we’ve reached day 11. Seriously folks. Amazing. Google (yes I know!!) keeps telling me about loads of women who don’t get their positive test until really late on, some examples have been after 10 days late, after 3 weeks late, even after 6 weeks late! Google also tells me about about many women who finally got their period after waiting weeks for it and just assumed they missed a cycle. So basically Google tells me nothing lol!

Anyway, I’ve got that Friday feeling so I will try not to think on it too much (yeah right!). I know I’ve said it over and over and over but I just wish something would happen!!!! Also I just found out that a friend of mine who already has a two year old is pregnant again which is awesome news of course but this is the same friend who conceived two days after coming off the pill the last time. Does he just have to look at her or something??? LOL! So that, combined with a couple of pregnant friends at work and of course Alice being due in a few weeks, as well as another person I know…. it’s like they’re everywhere :-( I know we’ve only even been ‘trying’ for a month or two and I’m far too impatient but I want you now!

I did something I’m not proud of today. After complaining loudly to anyone who would listen about how much I dislike Cheryl Cole, her music and how she can’t sing (which I still stick to, by the way!), I may have accidentally bought that ridiculously catchy song she has out at the moment. I don’t know why I always do this – I just set myself up for a fall, as I want so badly to be above her and her repetitive, electronic brand of rubbish pop but I always end up loving it in the end! *sigh* I’m just a teenage girl at heart I think. A point which I think is proven with my love of Matt Cardle in X-Factor (yes I know, I said I hated that too! That doesn’t mean I can’t have a favourite….). Although the fact that he is rather a scrummy piece of eye candy is actually almost irrelevant, the guy has THE most amazing voice! I was all for Wagner winning and ruining the show, but that would mean Matt wouldn’t win and to me that would be utterly tragic. So unless by some gross error of public judgment, Matt ends up being booted out before the final, I will have no choice but to actually support a real contestant and not someone that looks like an escapee from a rather creepy retirement home for pirates. This definitely doesn’t mean I like X-Factor though!

The one with musings

I’m sat here at work, drinking my Costa latte (my *ahem* one daily necessity), wondering how on earth I found so much interesting stuff to write about when I first started this blog. Well, perhaps interesting is stretching the truth a smidge….. but stuff at least! I suppose there were tales of drunken antics because of course, back then getting drunk was new and exciting (whereas now, I’d rather spare myself the horrors of the hangover the next day!), and the trials and tribulations of my ‘love’ life’ in which the focus of the moment changed on a weekly basis (whereas now I’m happily in love and while that’s amazing for me, nobody wants to hear endless “Today I am super duper happy with my husband. We had sex and he told me he loves me thirty-one times during the day”.

It’s funny how my focus has shifted, even in the last few months, from clothes, going out, shopping, parties, drinking… to houses, kitchen and bathroom designs, babies, babies, babies and David of course! I’m no longer that bothered about going out (a sign of getting old I guess – or maybe just settling down, as I know plenty of people my age and older who still love the clubbing thing). To be honest though, people can deny it all they like but I think clubbing loses its appeal when you’re not single anymore. I still love going out with my friends (who are fortunately mostly attached as well) but we tend to prefer going for dinner or to bars rather than out out if that makes sense.

Anyway I have no reason for bringing all this up, except to illustrate the point of how much we change in these early years of adulthood. I’ve had this blog since I was 16 and if you read my entries back then, it just sounds like a completely different person wrote them! But it’s nice to have that record of the person I was and the person I am now, be able to see the similarities and differences and then compare both to who I will become in the future. Oooh deep stuff :-)

The one with the painful waxing experience

Arg. Today was the day I look forward to and dread in equal measures lol... Waxing day! I feel so clean and tidy afterwards but maaaaan it hurts! On my way to my appointment (which I was hugely late for due to extreme laziness and waiting to get a lift rather than getting the train!) I had the worst cramps ever and I really thought it was coming finally... After all wouldn't it have been sods law for it to arrive well over a week late, yet on the day (and exact time) of my Hollywood wax appointment! But then..... Nothing!!

Curiouser and curioser! So other than that, nothing new to report really. Except that I'm watching 'The girl next door' and how much to I just wanna be Elisha Cuthbert. Perhaps if I starve myself, live in the gym for a year and get a plastic surgeon to give me an entire new face and boobs it's a possibility!

The one where I've made the decision to merge blogs

So in case you didn't already notice from all the waffly baby entries that have suddenly appeared in here, I decided to merge the two. I figure this way I stand a chance of maintaining at least one somewhat consistent blog for a bit longer (and I have been writing here since 2002, it seems a shame to stop now!)

I apologise in advance if loads of over-sharing entries about our 'Journey to conception' as somebody put it, are not your preferred reading subject matter but then, I imagine neither are my Christmas shopping achievements and endless sagas about my mother-in-law so it probably makes no difference. My advice to you is this - if you're not interested in that aspect of the blog, if something has a TTC label you might do best to avoid!!!

Of course, if you're not interested in any aspect of the blog, you might be wasting your time fishing through for something vaguely witty and/or interesting. Although here's a tip - if you want a good laugh, try reading some of my entries from 2002/2003... the grammar and punctuation is pretty hilarious.

The one with random wafflings

Hmmm. What to do, what to do. Part of me likes having separate blogs but I fear they will both suffer, depending on what mood I am in at the time of writing and what I am focused on and I don’t want huge gaps in either. Anyway.

So I’m now 8 days late, no sign of my period and…. Utterly confused.com. I know the pill can mess you up but my cycle was a perfect last month, exactly 28 days… why would it suddenly freak out and reach 36 days and counting? But I really don’t feel pregnant (apart from the tiredness, occasional breast ache and random tummy cramps/pains) so I’m gonna go with… really odd cycle. Still, if nothing has appeared by next Friday (18 days late) I am going to the doctors. I think I said all this in my other diary. Oh well.

So. Other non baby related news. *twiddles thumbs* Oh I know. This year I decided, given that I’ve managed to squeeze (a lie actually, it was given without me even having to ask for it!) about £1000 out of my parents towards our wedding, that for once they deserved a decent Christmas present rather than the usual book/DVD/CD I get them or (even worse) the diary/calendar type gift they get on really tight years! So David and I decided to get them one of those Red Letter Day gifts which, for those who haven’t heard of them, are basically an experience already paid for. Examples include theatre trips, river cruises, hot air balloon rides, driving experiences… you know the type. Anyway so we got my parents a one night stay with breakfast in a choice of B&B/hotels UK wide (all the choices are these little country hotels with about 10 bedrooms that my parents love and there were a couple in Norfolk where they live) so hopefully they will enjoy that (don’t EVEN say it haha!).

I am actually quite proud of myself for being so organized with Christmas shopping this year (I’m well over half done and it’s not even December yet!!) but then it does help to spread the cost so that in December you can afford to get your hair done for all the fabulous parties you will inevitably be going to. Priorities please!!

Speaking of one, David and I have decided to go out just the two of us this year rather than going to our company’s Christmas Ball – we love Below Zero (a restaurant in London that’s attached to the Absolut Ice Bar), I took David there for his birthday this year and we also went there on our ‘honeymoon’. It’s not stupidly overpriced but if you’re settled in for the night like we tend to be, you can easily rack up a pretty large bar bill so we’ve decided that it will kind of be our Christmas presents as well. I do love that place. It’s such a fab excuse to get dressed up and be all romantic (trust me, this place really encourages romance – it’s full of little booths and hidden tables) and it’s just nice to have some ‘us’ time.

Anyway I’ve waffled on long enough today… work is crazy busy but I’m just feeling so unmotivated right now. But that’s a whole ‘nother entry.

Oh by the way, I know you all already know this but look all the same... Just to make a point! (Do bear in mind it doesn't count today which is the 8th day as I suppose it could technically still come today... Yeah right!!)

The one with the blogging decision

Hello poor neglected little blog :-) my thoughts have been elsewhere!! I am starting to wonder about keeping two separate blogs... One is bound to get neglected and seeing as my brain has baby fever at the moment it seems to be this one. I wonder if I should move my pitiful trail of 'Cycle day' entries across to here...

So yeah in case you've not been reading over there, I'm nearly 8 days late with three negative pregnancy tests under my belt and feeling a tad confused to say the least! Other than obsessing about the above however, life is trundling along nicely... Every weekend until Christmas is full and I'm looking forward to consuming huge amounts of food that I don't need and perhaps alcohol, depending of course.

In other news - I'm super excited about our payday trip to IKEA on Tuesday, I fricking love that place! We need lots of cheapy glasses, cutlery and crockery for the Christmas dinner we've decided to host for our friends on the 12th. Something tells me that going to IKEA on payday is something I'll live to regret but.... We'll see.

I will leave you with two photos - one is the greatest invention EVER and one is the hugest rip-off I've ever seen. Guess which is which (it's not hard!!)

The one where I'm 6 days late

Another BFN this morning! So. Very. Confused.

Still no period... I guess will just have to wait some more!!!! Doctors next Friday if nothing happens by then...

The one where I'm 5 days late... re-test day tomorrow!

Ok... Still late... Still confused! Test day again tomorrow morning but I'm not really holding out much hope for some reason. Grr I wish something would just happen!!!!

The one where I'm 4 days late with BFN #2

OK so I’ve been googling… I really didn’t mean to…. But with another BFN this morning and STILL no period, it’s hard not to wonder.

“I know of people who've had false negatives especially off digital clearblue. I pray this is your time and hope the symptoms you're describing will give you a bfp ON AN ORDINARY TEST in a few days time. Best of luck xx”
“ahh thats interesting... i presumed if i bought the more expensive digital tests that it would be more accruate but from what you say sounds like i was wrong. i'll probably get my period in a couple of days anyway but thanks for your reply i appreciate it”
”Try an FRER”
”Digital clearblue tests are sensitive to 25 (whatever the units of HCG are). When I was pregnant a few weeks ago I got a BFP with an First response early result test, but a BFN with clearblue digital. 2 days later I got BFP with CB digital. The First response tests are sensitive to 10, so much more sensitive than CB digital. Try testing with an First response. They are cheaper and more reliable. Good luck XX”

So. Very confused to say the least. I know 4 days isn’t that late really but it’s still late enough, for someone who is never late. I know I’ve been super duper regular because being on the pill makes you like that but that fact that I was super duper regular even on my first natural period, surely counts for something? And now this freakish (now 32 day) cycle? WTF is all I can say really lol.

So. I’m off to get some First Response (I have an excuse, they’re BOGOF at Boots at the moment) but I’m not going to use one until at least Sunday. Then I’ll be 6 days late…

Arg I just wish I knew one way or another, if I’m not then I just want to get on with another cycle please! C’mon Spot make up your mind!

The one with BFN #1

Soooo.. I'm now cycle day 31, about 17dpo if I ovulated at cycle day 14... Still no AF... And a Big Fat Negative!! Grr!! With a Clearblue Digital as well!! Still it's not over until AF shows up so if it's not here by Sunday I will test again (first thing in the morning this time, I'd been peeing all day when I tested this evening!)... So basically I'm no better off than before I tested lol! Keep watching...

The one where I'm 3 days late

Omfg so how do you count how many days late you are? Does the day your period was supposed to come count as a day late?? If so I'm three days late now yay! Or if not then two at least. Will update later! I would be (perhaps I will anyway?) tracking symptoms now but cuz I'm so quietly excited and trying not to be, I'm not sure what's real and what is a result of my fevered imagination lol! So here we go - still crazy bloated and gassy, the sore nipples are slightly less but still there, slight hint of gagginess (don't know what over) a couple of times this morning but that happened last cycle too. Oh and I keep feeling like I need to pee all the time but sometimes not a lot comes out so that sounds more like a urine infection rather than pregnancy induced 'super-peeing' but I guess you never know. Another random one - my hair has been like stupidly greasy over the last week or so, like washed in the morning but never really feeling clean and getting greasy by the afternoon... However I think my hair feels cleaner today than it has in a while. Oh no, I hope that doesn't mean AF is finally coming today!!! I'm terrified any hormonal changes mean that lol hopefully the tests will arrive soon and put me out of my misery - 4 weeks and 3 days should be way late enough to get a positive result if I'm going to ( although I've heard of later).

Anyway so going for now, keep those fingers crossed for me! I so want Spot to be in there and to stay put!

**Edited to say** "Yay it's official, my tracker says I'm late! Wee!"

The one where I'm 2 days late

Ooh exciting! No sign of AF so far today... I'm hesitant to class myself as late in case I'm just not regular yet but given that I was spot on last month even after it being my first month off the pill, I see no reason why that would change. The funny thing is that I feel no different, except I had a funny dizzy shaky thing happen this morning which was fine as soon as I ate a cereal bar (blood sugar or something?). Oh and I have slightly achey stabby breasts, particularly the left one. Plus the random tummy pains (none of which have been much like period cramps so I'll be very surprised if that shows up anytime soon). Ok so when you read it like that it looks a bit better haha.

Ooohh well watch this space!!!

The one where the period is a no show

No sign of AF yet... Hang in there Spot (if you're in there at all!)

*Edited at 8pm to add*

Still no AF...... I know I'm not technically late yet but I've always been a 'late morning arrival' kind of girl so this is a bit out of the norm... not enough to let myself get excited, but enough to make me order two Clearblue digitals slightly cheaper from eBay so that I can test when they arrive (and if they just happen to arrive before our agreed testing date this Saturday then I'm sure David won't be able to resist the temptation either.. unless of course my period has arrived by then in which case they'll be fine for next month if needed!)

Arg I'm trying really hard not to let myself get too hung up on this cycle - I think we've both just gotten a little bit attached to Spot if he's in there, which we shouldn't have done but it's difficult! Anyway so far so good.... if the monthly friend decides to show up then so be it, it's only our first proper cycle and plenty of people wait much longer so I know we can too and we'll be all the more grateful for our baby when he or she is here.

But still.... please let our little Spot be there now :-)

The one where I'm due on tomorrow

My period is due tomorrow!!!! I don't know how I feel really... I kind of expect that it will show up on time, which will make me a bit sad but I'll try not to feel that way. Of course there's no reason why I shouldn't be pregnant and it is early for symptoms, especially when you don't know what you're looking for but... I don't know, I feel that I'd be more sure by now. I have been having some radom lower abdomen pains/twinges and I did sleep earlier this evening which is unheard of for me but not much to go on really! Still we've agreed to wait to test until Saturday (assuming I'm still late by then of course) so will either update then or sooner if AF shows up on time.

The one where I'm..urm.. 8DPO(ish)

I am SO bloated. Like so bloated. I feel like someone has stuck one of those air bed pumps up *somewhere* and filled me right up. I’ve been like it on and off (mostly on) all week. Not normal at all! Lots of weird random little pains and feelings going on down there as well but after the ridiculous reality of the symptoms I managed to conjure up last month (although perhaps I’m not being entirely fair to myself here, I had just come off the pill so it was bound to have some very real after effects!) I’m taking even my own feelings with a pinch of salt… I’ve now learned that even I am capable of imagining symptoms if I want something enough and I’m normally really good about this sort of thing.

So anyway. Other than the random twinges and pains, the ridiculous bloaty-ness and the fact that cleaning the bathroom and the smell of bleach made me want the hurl (granted, bleach isn’t a pleasant smell at the best of times but still I don’t normally object to it quite so strongly!) I am feeling completely normal and have no reason to think that this cycle is *the one*. David on the other hand, thinks he’s never seen me so bloated in his life (thanks for that!) and that “Joshie is in there”. Of course seeing as I’m the one this is (or isn’t) happening to, I’m inclined to go with my gut feeling rather than his and I’m not feeling it this month. Of course I will still be a little bit sad if my period comes next Tuesday.

If I ovulated when my basic period tracker guessed I would (which is really not necessarily accurate), I am about 8dpo today. I did feel some funny pains around that time but, having not ovulated (isn’t that how Microgynon works?) in about 7 years I have no idea whether or not that’s what it was. Anyway if I were Alice, I imagine I’d be peeing on a stick right now ;-) but as I don’t really feel the need and I don’t really have money to spend at the moment, we’ve decided to wait and see if my period is late in the old fashioned way haha!!

The one with Patch

My other fuzzy little bunny friend who's been my lucky mascot since I was about 14....

The one with all the baby talk

Currently at the in-laws and... Not gonna lie... Slightly bored. My little niece Lucy is here while David's sister is out and you'd think in my current state I'd be turned to mush by her but I find myself unable to relax around babies when my MIL is around, I feel my every move is being watched or judged and I don't know why - it's probably just me being paranoid anyway. I do worry about how much (how to put this tactfully?!) er... 'help' she will want to provide when we have our own. Still we'll cross that bridge when we come to it of course.

We were out for Thai for David's brother's birthday last night (I know all I seem to do these days is celebrate one birthday after another, we're in Norwich for my dad and brother's next week!), and surprisingly I got through the whole meal without feeling any irritation haha... I may exaggerate slightly but sometimes I find my family-in-law a bit much, they generally are a perfect example of why too much family 'togetherness' (read: interference!) is NOT a good thing.

So today is (already!?) the last day of the weekend and I think we plan do absolutely sod all lol! I want to do a bit of (admittedly extremely premature) research on some baby related stuff, mainly breastfeeding - we had a mini argument in the car on the way back from dinner as David took something I said the wrong way and thought that by saying I wanted to breastfeed, I was somehow saying he had no rights towards feeding his own children at all. Yeah I know, I'm not sure where he got that from either. Anyway so I wanted to look into stuff that would let him be a part of all that (exciting stuff like breast pumps lol). Just preparation for when all our Sundays (and other days too) are about baby haha! I know it probably seems like I'm worry about things way too early but I don't want us to have to figure all this stuff out once littlie is already here!

Anyhoo will be back soon! Ps - here a picture of my first babies, Thumper and Hazel (don't believe you've met them yet?)

The one where I am sad for Lily

I'm not normally one for empathising with celebrities who (of course!) I don't know personally... but given the all consumed state of my heart and thoughts at the moment, I can't help but feel truly awful at the mere thought of what Lily Allen must be going through. To lose a baby is surely always a terrible thing but at 6 months pregnant? Absolutely heartbreaking and completely unexpected, I should think. I can't even imagine. My heart goes out to any woman who has been through this and I just hope and pray that I will never have to.

Doesn't do much for my extreme paranoia either! Please be ok when you finally make it into there little Bean!!

The one where it's ovulation day

Ooh it's so exciting :-) according to my very basic period tracker (which works entirely on averages and has no bearing on my personal cycle at all) I should be ovulating today. Of course that is assuming that I ovulate exactly 14 days after my last period started, which I may well not have! Anyway we've done the necessary thing 4 times in the 10 days since my period ended so thats almost every two days which is supposed to be the best interval - contrary to popular belief, if you do it every day you actually decrease your chances as you're not giving his..er.. 'stuff' chance to build up. But to be honest, we've been trying not to control anything as we'd rather our baby was conceived through natural 'desire' rather than timing if that makes sense. I mean obviously if we struggle a few months down the line we will be completely open to timing but I think (hope!) that we will not have a problem.

Soooo... assuming I have already ovulated this cycle, our baby could already be in the making :-) i feel awful that I'm drinking a glass of wine right now but it tastes so gooood :p plus of course if we weren't trying I wouldn't even be worrying about this. It's not like I'm a raging alcoholic or anything :-D

Ooooh I want my baby!!! Every time I see pregnant ladies, babies, toddlers, even older children with their parents I just feel so... mushy. I can't even begin to think what it must be like to have to wait for a long time, my first proper cycle isn't even over yet and I already feel like I've been waiting too long! But I know it'll be our turn when it's supposed to be. Sometimes I feel terrified there will be a problem... I have no reason to think so, my family have always had perfectly normal pregnancies, births and children but I keep thinking there's always a first time. I'm sure it's normal to feel like this though. Anyway as we discussed last entry, my cycle returned to normal IMMEDIATELY (go body!) so if I'm late this time it is almost certainly of significance. I'm due on the 16th November so if nothing has appeared by, lets say the 18th then I WILL be testing!!! Watch this space :-)